Booya!

I had my first ever sleep paralysis no more than 2 days behind the day of this posting. It was an authentic dejavu. But I had done absolutely nothing to induce it. Well to elaborate, I had done a fair bit of reading before I had just... I don't remember but I just woke up to vibrations in both my wrists. Actually I first thought that I just awoke? But now I realize that it must have been the tremors, totally. To elaborate further, it was simply the standard bed time, you know?Nothing unusual.

But there I was, I hadn't opened my eyes but I was smiling inside alright. I was like This is it! It's working! But I was skeptical about continuing and dissociating? Because I had had a splitting headache all day and it had reached the verge of subsiding by the time I was vibrating however, but I was feeling low about it, as I thought it was not a pleasant start with the headache and all.

Last night, the first day after that experience, while the headache hadn't quit unfortunately, I just lay in bed just like the other day, trying to recreate the moment through the way I had found myself lying while the tremors started? But I didnt put all my heart into to like the previous day (which was subconscious, after the reading and the inadvertent programming of my instincts in ways that I hadn't had any part of) because of the FUCKING HEADACHE. So I didn't want to ruin my experience an just snoozed defeated but feeling positive and fulfilled however slight (but anything but feeble) the improvement. I am doing it! And I will succeed.

But not day perhaps, although I want to. I have my doubt because the headache lingers. Like fucking lingerie on a line (not that I'm against lingerie or them drying, but a mere analogy to how scanty this hurt is.)

So, my dear spiritualists, please let me ask one and all, if ummm would having a headache not allow the headachee to separate? I know that I can do the vibrations with the headache but will there be a point in trying further? Personally I didn't want to actually go further the first time of the conscious sleep paralysis because I hadn't wanted to ruin the experience like I said.

And dear spiritualists, as effecting sleep paralysis may still be a quandary regardless of my convictions, would yous share your methods (that are not guaranteed to work for me I assume.)

Because from sleep paralysis on, I'm a master. Separation, never had to do it before but I can expect it to be phlegmatic at first but dissociation is a technical slippery slope; r probably would be, for me. I'll explain:

Nearly thirteen years ago, I was standing by a bed, in no other way I could think of, but abruptly. I was freaked out of my skin my blood, my very skeleton by what was on the bed. Strapped to tubes and bizarre medical equipment a person was on the bed, with his skull open, and abdomen yawning open. I looked up at the face... it was torn on the (face's) right side. Like, bewildering.

Me: I was just blank. I had no idea what I was looking at. I was rooted to the spot, and assumed I deserved to just be nonchalant. Because my brain had stopped thinking!

That amounted to a fragment of a memory. I learnt that had crashed my car super violently and dying.

Then I recovered. But I was able to project willfully, easily for nearly 10 years. Then it stopped. So I need help with the vibrations, please. Looks like I've been demoted to old-school...