Meditation location

I literally opened my 3rd eye my first meditation using water for help with energy. Since I have revisited the same place. Black sky, millions of stars and I am overwhelmed with happiness. I feel everyone there. That's it. I do however have my head shake and sometimes my entire body until I'm tired. I feel like I may ascend at any moment. I have always been able to sence a loved one when something is wrong. And I am very loving by nature. Many times to my own detriment. I am wondering if I am stuck. Will there be more for me in meditation or should I accept what I know. I desperately seek answers. What is my purpose. Why, reincarnation. I have had a life of hurt. I look forward to the feeling I have when I meditate. I cannot imagine coming back. I don't want to do it. I need my heart healed. Thank u in advance. I'm sorry there is so much to be said and this is so basic. I'm not sure what someone needs to know about my events. I have been meditating approx a year now.