It was dark at night. I wanted to try astral projection. I wanted to see for myself what the benefits were to it. (I don't know any methods to astral project) I thought that by astral projecting I would find God and learn more about the depths of this universe. I wanted to seek any real life advantages but fear is my main issue. I opened my eyes and I saw a flood of shadow figures. It felt like they were oppressing me. I was scared stiff, waking up to new--- sounds, vibrations, colours and images. Everything I had travelled so far before I encountered them were in my head, leaving me worn out behind. It seems like they sucked the 'life force' out of me. Does anyone have any healing advices during astral projection ? (Especially when it comes to an encounter with these entities) Ever since then my life was terrible and it affected me while studying a lot. My relations with others went down the hill. I was becoming a monster among everybody. I was so alone and so depressed. It was as if these hidden monsters feed on my fear. I lose hope and purpose. I wish to regain myself and heal completely, so as to have a more positive astral projection experience. Also, I am doing astral projection in secret and my parents are against it. I have learnt about its potential to live with my ideas in a sort of 'reality' and test it out. I heard of its immense benefits in our Everyday lives--- is this true?
Tldr; 1. Did I astral project? Or is this a dream? (Lucid?) 2. How to heal myself after a negative encounter? 3. Benefits of astral projection? 4. Methods of Astral Projecting? 5. How to stand up to fear so as to astral project?
Sorry if I take up so much time! I'm new to it and I need help...