I had a lot of problems/emotional pains when I was younger. And one day I had to decide whether to live or to die. The pain was worse and the only way out was death, I thought. But the other way out was right through all the emotional pain. And that was the only "right" way.
And at that moment I realized I wanted to live, but until that moment, because of all the fears that kept me from really living, really being me, I realize I had been dead all the time. I had to start being alive, just like being asleep and realizing you can wake up.
And I am really glad that I am still here. I still chose to life and try to heal.
It is fun to try to stop this thinking. This inner dialog keeps us from being able to be quiet within. It is really a good feeling if you are able to stop this thinking and find the peace and quietness withing. If the everyday world become to much and too stessed I just focus on the quietness and then for a moment things look different.
best wishes
Sandra
Hi all,
I found this ebook about lucid dreaming. Lucid dreaming, a gateway ot the inner self by Robert Waggoner
It is a realy good book. I recognize a lot of what Robert is saying in his book.
http://www.google.nl/url?sa=t&rct=j&q=lucid%20dreaming%20robert%20waggoner%20pdf&source=web&cd=2&sqi=2&ved=0CDYQFjAB&url=http%3A%2F%2Fddl2.data.hu%2Fget%2F0%2F5811470%2Flucid_dreaming_robbert_waggoner.pdf&ei=t0uXUbnqJoi40QW62oHwBQ&usg=AFQjCNFkCysoIahMK2nKWWh8h8cJbr5cuQ&bvm=bv.46751780,d.d2k