Astral Projection Forum

i, I'm confused.. my friends accessed the akastic records.. they told me once I was Caesarion, Augustus strangled me. Thoth, the god was seen by my friend Ruben, he was standing in a room with 11 other deities. Thoth said I was so weak, and he said I was annoying, and life is better off without me. Horus looked nervous, my friend sensed my spirit within Horus. Anyways. .. I guess the gods dislike me somehow. I'm just curious because he seen two versions. He saw me 30 years old as Caesarion, I wasn't dead, probably ressurected.  But Augustus whispered in my ear like how Judas would do so to Jesus. How could I be completely dead, but then be alive?