I don't know what this would be concidered.

Posted almost 13 years ago , by Calamity

I have had many odd experiences, most of my life i was atheist, in fact i am a minister of the first church of atheism.  i usually try to find logical reasons for the things i have experienced, my aunt is a psychologist, when she's not a born again christian she say's im schizophrenic, when she's a born again, then im possessed by the devil. Personally, i think she's crazy.
Anyhow, one experience i had was by no means paranormal, not scary, but i find it was one of the reason's i started to become agnostic and started studying eastern religions.
At the time, i was working like crazy. I had two job's: one at a hospital during the weekends graveyard shift and the second at a post-production studio n. I was also going to school after work four days a week. Added to that, i was acting as taxi driver for my grandmother while she was sick and taking her to the dr, as well as interrupting my sleep everyday to drive my brother to work. I also drove my co-worker/friend friend home almost every day to north hollywood, while i lived 30 miles from there. In l.a. traffic, it usually took me an hour and a half to get home in the morning after a graveyard shift at the hospital.
So, i was extremely sleep deprived. I was driving home from work, after having dropped off a friend of mine and i was on the 118 freeway, which is a long streach and pretty straight. I fell to sleep while i was driving. I don't know how long i had been asleep, but i suddenly saw two bright red light's behind my eyelids and i became aware my eyes were closed. My eye's shot open and i saw i was cruising at 90 something miles an hour and i was about to collide with a big rig truck, which was a couple yards ahead of me.
I slammed on the breaks and fishtailed to a stop. I don't know how i saw the taillights, it was day time so needless to say, the red light's that i saw weren't really there.
Now, i sometimes can see when my eyes are closed, it's like i can phsycially see the room i am in-sometimes. I also sometimes hear voices but only on the verge of sleep. One time i asked a voice a question, and i received an answer in a visual form. It was a scary experience. I was laying on my couch with my eye's closed and i hear the voice say "He's as cold as ice." It didn't make any sense, but at this time i was trying to figure out what was going on with me, my fiance had just past away and i was hoping there was life beyond. So someone said, next time you hear a voice, talk to them. So i asked "Who is?" Then an image flashed in front of my closed eyes. It was a sillohette  of a man, framed in what looked like a deep blue flames. He had chin length hair, and that was all i could see. But it scared the shit out of me, so i have never spoken to these voices again. My aunt once told me, schizophrenics hear voices only out of one ear, but i am certain that i am hearing out of both sides. But not like the voices are coming from somwhere. I hear them, but it sounds like it's coming from inside my head sometimes.
Anytime someone say's they hear voices, people automatically think crazy. but each voice i hear-on the verge of sleep- is different. It's usually not talking to me. Sometime's it's like i hear bit's of converstaions, kind of like walking through a mall, you can hear people talking and focus on a converstaion. If anyone has had these kind of experiences' and know what it is or wants to share, it would be nice to know that im not crazy =)- also, if anyone knows the significance of a white owl (not a real one, but one i saw in a mirror reflection)

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